living in the lyme light

the new year started out powerfully for me. i had a strong sense of purpose, strength and power in direction. i will reduce my families waste and live a more environmentally friendly lifestyle.

here we are almost a full half a year from then and i feel so far away from that power. it is true that last time i did recycling i had almost no plastic and our recycling often out paces our throwaways. i suppose i should check that off on my list. and of course the diva cup is so cool!

but life is strange and takes twists and turns to teach us about our own futility and nature’s awesome powers. to make a long story short, lyme disease and it’s co-infections have ravaged half my family for many years. after recognizing this about two and half years ago, my daughter and husband went on various strains of antibiotics and supplements. my husband seems to have come out the other end feeling mostly well, better than he has for years. my daughter on the other hand, has not seen much benefits from the drug treatments.

about a month ago, we went off the antibiotics and went in search of alternative therapies. it was a revelation. my feelings were that i had relinquished my responsibility for my daughter’s health to the drug companies. no wonder they own america, it is such a wonderful idea to take a pill and be better. unfortunately, for our lazy ass selves, this is usually not what is needed.

so really, i feel blessed with this new development because it has opened my mind and life in new ways. now i am researching and learning about how to optimize the health of my daughter, and everyone else while we are at it, through diet, supplements and electronic healing (more about that later).

for starters, we are working on streamlining her diet so that she eats exceptionally healthy. well, this means that everyone has to do the same because we all can’t be eating junk while she has to eliminate the sugar and simple carbs and other wonderful tasting items (remember my suffering over whether or not to buy her the “good things” in life that come in bags?). well, it ends up that those things are poison for her anyway! so it does all work out in the end, sometimes. well it would if i were to stop here.

but i cant.

remember all that yummy bread that i used to make? yummy, but not really the healthiest for us! so it was good that i stopped making it! but now i should learn how to make sprouted grain bread. anyone have any good recipes?

here is another example of how this all is such an interesting experience: we all pretty much quit eating bread and had minimal if any pasta for weeks in solidarity with alex. then she went away for the weekend (doing much better, thank you). so my hubby and i pigged out on pasta. guess what? we both got sick! seems as though we are both gluten sensitive as well!

my point is that i feel i have moved on. my focus has shifted. but really, now that i think about it, all is connected and i need to expand to care not only about the waste produced, but the quality of stuff coming into our lives, especially food. consciousness needs expanding. all is connected. everyone please join me in my new mantra, yom.